To be brutally honest, this exercise brought on emotions that I have let lie dormant for over three years. Thoughts of my deceased mother, her smile and kind words together with the familiar sounds of the ocean induced a feeling of sadness and nostalgia that I did not care to experience. As the tears flowed, I am not sure if I felt relief or awareness. I stopped for a moment to allow the feelings to subside and then continued. I think that this process takes practice because I had a very hard time letting go and finding that inner calm. J did not know what to do with the silence. I am not sure if I was probably fearful of the previous experience occurring, but I found it difficult to complete the exercise properly.
I have chosen interpersonal aspects as the focus of my growth and development because my “perceived” inability to relax, release and rejuvenate is reflected in my chronic bouts of insomnia and hyperactivity. I believe that I should practice yoga and meditation more often and be able to practice deeper meditation after some time.